Updated: Feb 2
And just like that January 2021 is over! It doesn’t seem as though we’re in a New Year. The end of a year is marked by Christmas celebrations, spending time with loved ones and having parties over New Year but this year it just didn’t happen. It still feels as though I am trapped in 2020, missing friends and family, missing days out with Matt and date nights. This week it’s hit me hard, the realisation of last year's cancelled events that got carried into this year will likely still not go ahead. It’s been a tough week this week, but as with all feelings, this feeling of helplessness will pass.
It’s ok to Fail
This week has taught me that I cannot have a wobble on this journey, well a prolonged wobble anyway. After weeks of no coffee’s Monday - Friday, this week hasn’t gone quite so well. 1-2 cups per day and I’m feeling the effects of it. I feel like I need one come 2pm. When I am not drinking coffee I don’t feel the need to have one to make it through the afternoon. Without coffee I find my energy levels a lot more constant and stable. I’m not going to say I am disappointed with myself, just a little sad. The thing is, I know I can do better and that when I do better, I feel better. So next week, back to no coffees Monday-Friday, and maybe at the weekends too while I really get a hold of this need for it!
Protein, Protein, Protein!
In a bid to increase my protein, after the failed attempt using hard boiled eggs, I went with Babybel. Well that didn’t go well either, almost instantly (two days into having two Babybels a day) I have had a massive acne outbreak. Now the debate about dairy and hormones is an odd one. One site will suggest eating dairy, the other treats it like devil food. I honestly think a lot of the time we just need to see how our bodies react without putting too much time into research online. However there is some evidence to suggest that A1 casein, a protein found in milk, can be inflammatory in some women and this can also lead to more painful periods. Nutrition is a minefield, so for now I am going to just simply eat as clean as I can while avoiding the foods I know trigger acne, bloating and a general feeling of meh! Instead I have added in a protein shake into my morning routine just to give me that extra oomph! I have also increased my bean intake - protein and fibre, win win!
Can the Moon Affect your Mood?
Thursday bought us a full moon. Now, I have always been fascinated with the way the moon affects the tides and earth's gravity and the science stuff. So if it has this profound influence over the earth, does it have the potential to alter our moods and emotions. Well after this week I believe that to be true. Nothing happened to make me feel the way I did but all day Wednesday I was just in a place of darkness. No matter what anyone did or said I just wanted to be left alone, I felt heavy, like I was carrying something on my shoulders. It’s the weirdest thing and really hard to explain. So I took to Google to see how the moon can affect our moods and came across this: ‘The full moon can feel like a bit of a disruptive time, resulting in more erratic behaviour, tension, or tiredness. You may find yourself feeling anxious or emotionally upset. Research has shown that we actually sleep less on the full moon, so it's important to ensure you care for your body.’
I then wanted to learn more and come across a book by Kirsty Gallagher called Lunar Living. I ordered it straight away. According to the Amazon description Lunar Living will help you to:
- Feel empowered to make big life decisions
- Understand yourself better
- Tune into your natural cycles
- Improve your sleep, mental health and relationships
- Live a happier, more intentional life
I cannot wait to receive this and delve in!
In house news, we received an email letting us know that the walls have all been plastered which is the last step before the fitting of the kitchens, bathrooms and floors take place! It’s getting so close. When we walked up last weekend they had started building the wall between the footpath and our garden and the fencing for the garden was going up. I still find it odd that we are buying a house without ever stepping foot inside it, or a show home - thanks covid! It does cause a level of anxiety but I am sure it’ll be fine - right?
I hope you have all had a lovely week and are all staying safe. Make sure you keep in contact with friends and family - a phone call will go a long way at the moment, I know I appreciate it when a loved one reaches out x